PorcelainDoll

Music will always be my hobby of choice, and not being able to do any for a while has made me realise how important it is to me. I don't care about getting anywhere, I've never persued it in that way...But I now know that I need to carry on, for my own sanity! Everyone needs a hobby, I just wish I could've picked a less expensive one, as I will never have the means to buy new tools...but I gave my musician friend who was thinking of giving up some very important advice the other week...Music is not something you choose, it chooses you. If you answer the call and take those first steps like I did when I was 16, its there forever. You might be able to put it on hold for a while... months, years even, but it will always be there in the back of your mind. You can't leave it alone, no matter how hard you try. I can't anyway!

After having an extremely long break from BandAmp and making music in general I am about to make a fresh start, and draw a line under PorcelainDoll. I will miss her but I'm 23 next June, and thats far too old to be playing with dolls.
We've been through a long journey together that never would have started at all if it wasn't for the brilliant supportive members of BandAmp!
Thankyou for all your kind words, constructive criticism and general optimism! Its amazing that so many people have been with me on this journey, you guys have pretty much seen (or heard) me grow up!

I've learnt alot with PD, and it feels like I've learnt even more whilst not making music. I've met a couple of musicians who have given me tons of advice, I've been through a fair amount of 'life stuff',  I've listened to lots of music and let my mind go in lots of different directions... so I actually have no idea what kind of stuff I'm going to come out with next. It might sound exactly the same as it did before, I might not have learnt as much as I think I have...I'll just have to wait and see. For now though, its goodbye from the Doll, but I will be back one day, with an older head, more involved in the amp, just under a different guise!!! Goodbye, Farewell, See you soon!!

Sorry for being awol for 100 years then double dropping on you cause Ive had a beer...

Ive just worked out that its been 13 years since I last uploaded here and I am exactly twice the age I was when I found bandamp.

Thats actually insane.

Promise I will be back to listen properly and do some reviews and all that jazz very soon.


Things that were not meant for me
I learnt to let them leave
Whats left is all that matters now
All I need to believe
I'm still not quite sure
What I was hoping to achieve
When I was chasing rain clouds
Sewing my pain into my sleave

But It turned out fine
It turned out fine
It turned out fine
And im still alive

Things that should have burried me
Only made me strong
But i guess im the common
Denominator,
And I was probably in the wrong
So I turned my mistakes
Into lessons,
Cause thats all that was left to do
And I don't regret one single thing
Cause it lead me right to you

And it turned out fine
It turned out fine
It turned out fine
And we're still alive
Yeah it turned out fine
We're doing fine
Everythings fine
But Im still tired

What if I still cant get it right?
After all this time?
What if i still fuck it up
For no reason, with no rhyme?
Well at least i tried
I guess i tried
Well at least I tried
I Guess I tried...

Well s**t guys, Its been a minute, amirite?

I can't actually believe the site is still going!
You were the pioneers man. The O Gs. When soundcloud was probs not even a noise puddle.

Please give me a hola if you remember me as a wee nipper.

My eldest son (Turned 14 last week) made the beat for this. I showed him the basics of FL, and he just ran with it. This was done last July, after I had had a some kind of spiritual awakening in 2020, learnt tarot and had a horrendous breakup. The elderspawn doesn't really do much music now because he's gotten massively into basketball, and is fully running with that now. We never thought he would get into a sport, so its just gotta be encouraged. I think he still does it secretly, he just hides it from me because it must be uncool to make music with your mom.

But anyway.

How the hell is everyone?

very very VERY cheesy

bit of a naff girly tune, but i think the hooks ok. theres a few clicks and glitches that arn't supposed to be there. also, it sounds dead flat. dunno if its FL, my soundcard or both but anyway...my headphones make it sound alot better :/

would you step into my time machine,
go back to when we knew nothing,
nothing of eachother or what would be,
just too strangers passing in the street.
would you step into my time machine,
go right back and change everything,
erase all the truth that you now know,
and make it so the cracks don't ever show.

i'm sorry, i never meant to do you wrong...
i'm sorry, that i couldn't be the one...
trouble is...

when you open your heart to let love in,
its wide open to attack.
and if they abuse the trust that you give,
you know it ain't ever coming back. (x2)

if i had a time machine,
i wouldn't change a single thing,
it all makes us strong in the end...

when you open your heart to let love in,
its wide open to attack.
and if they abuse the trust that you give,
you know it ain't ever coming back. (x2)

a bit of direction from me ol' mucker ash...
and very bad singing. found a realllly good free vst plugin called red..something...

'nobody said you had to be perfect,
nobody said you had to stay strong.
nobody said you wern't alowed to,
make some mistakes along the way.'